“Don’t Postpone Joy.” I saw this on a bumper sticker yesterday, and it’s been stuck in my head since. I’ve actually been looking for a good bumper sticker for my car. Something to differentiate myself in suburbia. Where does one find bumper stickers these days? In the 80s and 90s seemed there were lots at the mall. These days I suppose I have to look online, but it doesn’t seem as much fun.
But I digress. Please don’t blame me, dear reader, for I have been through two of the roughest weeks of motherhood.
There have been changes afoot in our house, both in schedule and due to illness. We started Bean in childcare a few days a week, and while she did well there, she seemed to miss us. On her second day there, I developed a debilitating case of mastitis, landing me in the hospital. As I healed, I didn’t see or hold Bean much: I also had to stop breastfeeding abruptly, leaving me trying to tend to both my body and spirit.
The last week has been soul-wrenching and physically draining. My husband and I have tried to support each other as much as we can, while keeping our own selves going.
But I want to be positive not only in this forum but in our approach to caring for Bean. Talking with my friend Pamela at lunch today at Bangkok Street, she encouraged me to think again about that bumper sticker, and even in this dark time, find the joy. So here is what I find joyful now:
- Bean discovering her feet and happily sucking on them
- Playing piano for Bean while wearing her in a Bjorn
- Watching Bean make pools of drool as she “loves” a toy while sitting in a Bumbo
- Seeing Bean roll over for the first time
- Seeing pediatric allergist Dr. Blair, who gave us a plan and real hope for battling Bean’s skin problems
When you’re down, you can only go up, right? I will try to keep my eyes on the prize. Maybe you can help by telling me what makes YOU joyful!